I feel like i let you down when you needed me the most like this is your prom we was suppose to go threw it together and although you forgive me i don’t forgive myself i was suppose to be your date i was suppose to be your knight in shining armor standing beside you as you light up the night and i blew it my 1 shot i had to make everything perfect again im sorry that i fucked up your magical night and miss one of the biggest celebrations and it bothers me im not trying to make u sad or anything im just frustrated that your going with no flower/ i cant be the one to present you the flower on top of wanting to spend time with you on your bday today was another one of those days that i really just wanted to be by your side and now its already 12 dad is at work and still no suit case i fucked up and all i have to blame is myself …. in sorry i truely sorry
It’s like, I want you next to me so bad, that this loneliness physically hurts. I just want you to hold me again. I never understood what it meant to feel safe in someone’s arms until I met you. Why am I so emotional? I may just cry. Dumb.
I didn’t know I could feel so much, love so much…….all because of one person…..this has never happened before.
im tird of being hurt im tird of being sad im tird of fucking up im tird of crying im tird of making mistakes im tird of being so complex im tird of feeling alone im tird of never being held at my lowest moment im tird of not feeling special im tird of chasing people im tird of not being strong enough im tird of people judging me im tird of explaining myself im tird of being sorry im tird of wanting to be loved im tird of being controlled im tird of people trying to change me im tird of people thinking they got me figured out im tird of people not understanding me im tird im just tird